Alice

Hello! My name is Alice. I'm 26 years old. I have my undergraduate degree in Spanish and am hoping to get back into school to study neuroscience.

I am an artist at heart, and I write, dance, sing, do photography, and paint. I also value clothing, makeup, and body art as a way of artistic expression.

I'm panromantic and polyamorous, so I do a lot of falling in love. I believe that love is infinite and hope to inspire others to be able to express love more freely and openly. I am writing a book that explores different types of love and introduces new English words to name them.

I feel most sexy when I am able to be most myself. That might sound super cliché, but I've found it to be very rare in practice. It is a state of being that involves a lot of trust and acceptance, both from one's self and from whoever one is with. There's a look people get in their eyes when they look into the eyes of someone they feel that trust and acceptance with. They let so many of their walls down to reveal deep levels of who they are. I've never experienced anything as intimate as those moments.

My favorite part of me is my heart. I spent too long considering it a weakness, the way I fall in love with and care for people, particularly to great depths with multiple people. I found the freedom this year to learn to consider it a strength and love my heart for all it does.

I've also grown to embrace my shyness. The more you get to know me and the more real I start to be with you, the more shy I become, so good luck figuring that out. Being as quiet as I am has been my biggest insecurity throughout my life, and it still stings a bit when people point out how quiet I am. I often have people tell me I don't need to be shy, but being quiet and shy is a valuable part of who I am. I spent a lot of my high school and college years teaching myself how to interact with people and be social, and it's only been in the last few years that I've come back to being more of my natural self. I love to be around people, but I'm perfectly content being the wallflower or with meeting more new pets than new people at most parties. I've also found a lot of my voice through writing, and that has been powerful.

This year has been one of great learning for me, and one of the lessons I've found most valuable is that of celebrating my body for what it is. I was taught to feel ashamed for revealing too much of it or for being sexy, and that's so wrong. I wanted to do this photoshoot as a stand against everything I once believed, beliefs that carry shame and fear that are still a part of who I am in many ways. Our bodies aren't something to be ashamed of, but rather, something worthy of respect. Additionally, sexual interest and expression (or lackthereof) is a integral part of who we are and how we relate to others. I've also worked hard this year to take better care of my body and mind. I struggled with an eating disorder in college that caused a lot of health problems for me, but I gained 10 pounds back this year, and that is worth celebrating.

Check out the entire set of over 30 photos by backing at http://patreon.com/hellapositive!